Dear Lord.

two weeks time is like a day away for us. its hard to believe as we've been looking the day for years in our life. there were times when the day seemed to blur into never or impossible but i believe those time will come, God willing. dear Lord, please forgive the selfish nature of my prayers, but it is a woman's prerogative to hound heaven on her beloved behalf. if the marriage is right, it doesn't matter how many glitches pop up on the wedding day, as my loved one always say, love isn't about finding a perfect person but seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
my fiance is now lying on the bed, greatly in pain. how i wish we could share the pain together. how i wish God let me take all the pains from him. how i wish i could be there with him all the time.
the past five days have consisted of endless amounts of tears, and whispered prayers. i do need him God, I truly truly do. he’s my best friend, the one I go to when I need advice, the shoulder I’ve always had to cry on, and the one person with whom I can’t even begin to picture my life without. i’m not strong enough. please make everything better, keep him healthy. he’s all I have.
be strong my dear. remember? we do believe right, when God puts us through pain and sufferance, He also gives us the power to surpass them. my dear, satan rules over that emotion, and will find a foothold in us if we are afraid. commit to God, ask for strength. we can face the storm standing firm, or on the shaky ground of doubts.
love you for ever.

*its unbearable*